Thursday, September 18, 2008
♥ Today sux.
Today is the worst day i have ever been this year.
I have been thinking of my Grandma the whole day n i am really depressed.
And btw, I lost my whole stack of foolscap n pen during recess.
Plus I lost my thumbdrive.
My father is going to kill me.
How?
I wonder if this is the stress mr chin meant.
But his methods of stress management doesnt work at all.
one things for sure, I am not going to cry.
second, i really wan to die.
i noe it rhymes but i am not joking.
I have not even completed my storyboard n dnt model tht is due tmr.
Yesterday I tried revising for science.
But my mum n dad damn emo.
after i came back from tuition, (father fetched me) my younger sis told us at the door.
"ma mi geng cai ku. ta jiang ah ma hen yan zhong."
my grandma is hospital.
Due to the upcoming exams, we cannot go back.
My mum is going to go back first, but after exams i am going to take leave n go back see her immediately.
To trust that I just saw her earlier this month. She was perfectly FINE.
The moment i heard that, I ran out of the room and went to a stack of photos n started looking for the photos i took with her when i was a baby.
She grown a lot older.
Then I kept it in my closet. with the hongbao she gave me during the spetember holidays.
RM 20. I swore to myself that i will never ever use it.
I really dunno wat to do.
I tried studying for science yesterday, but kept thinking of her, so i went to sleep again.
I even prayed before i slept.
N today we were singing love, me.
me n cherie. When we reached the second part, the part where granma passed away, i told cherie:
Dun sing le. damn sad.
I think i will flunk my exam. i really will.
N i am prepared to fail.
Not kidding.
... I hate this world. Its so unfair.
